for better or for worse

Sooooo.... im getting married in about 11 days, and tonight was a little challenging. so i have been thinking about the vows "for better or for worse" and i have to say that i honestly think no matter how bad it ever gets, i dont think i would ever want to live without jarrod. he is my best friend and has we have each other's best interests at heart and even when we dont really like each other that much we still choose to love each other. we both love rhylie and want her to grow up and be the best girl she can be and to be supremely happy in her life. we are trying to work as a team to help her learn now to make good choices so she can make them on her own when she gets older. I want to model a sweet, well-mannered God-fearing example for her. I know i sometimes miss the boat, but that's what forgiveness is for, right? I really do love her though, and cannot wait to be a Hulett like her and her daddy. I want us to be a family and to be for each other and to band together no matter what comes at us. I think this is more than happy because thats just a feeling that can come and go. A week or two ago i was frustrated because we as a couple were under some scrutiny, but i think it has only made us more sure and stronger. Im now thankful for this though because without it we might not know or be as sure of what we really want. My heart hurts even when he is only gone for a few hours to work here in town and it is worse when he has to go out of town. It was horrible when i went to europe and couldnt see or talk to him for so long. He is my partner in life and i want it to always be that way. I had my heart broken by a boy who got a little too much of it ince and i thought i would never love anyone that much ever again, and i was wrong. I thought it would always be broken and that no matter what happened no one would ever be able to fix it or to help me get over it and love again, and wouldnt you know that right in that moment when i felt the most unlovable...there he was! He was polite and charming, then not so much...he was a boy i dated, a boy i blew off that kept chasing after me, and then my best friend, my boyfriend, and soon he will be my husband and will promise to love me no matter what and stick by me through thick and thin... he will tell everyone that even though neither of us is perfect, he chooses me. and FOR THAT...i absolutely cannot wait!

Love you babe! :)

HBC

LOSE WEIGHT NOW, ASK ME HOW!!!!

Ok so here's the truth, i needed to lose weight BAD!!!! I got on the scale and it said 235 and i just about died, and decided it was time to get serious about losing weight. I have tried everything guys, healthy food and exercise, crazy hard exercise everyday (can i get an amen from the P90X'ers of the world) and starving myself. I have done slim fast, and weight watchers, and calorie counting, and diet pills...the whole nine yards! i was having a little but of success after about a year of really bustin my butt everyday, but its such a slow and painful process right...WRONG! it doesnt have to be, and now that i have found the answer i want to share it with everyone i know that feels the way i did.

Here's how it happened for me:
My aunt and uncle invited me to go skiing with them in mid febuary, and we had a blast! what i didnt know was that they had both just joined a weight loss challenge where they would take these products from a nutrition company and supposedly it would just melt the weight off in a healthy manner. without exercise. I was like HA! ok lets see this! long story short, she won 4th place and he got 7th out of 105 poeple and they each won $100 cash! they lost 16 & 18 lbs in 28 days. Then my other aunt, two uncles, and grandmother in dallas got on the products and were having similiar results, except lisa and steve got 1st place and 2nd place in their challange. So finally i get to thinking about it and decide i'll give it a try bc i dont want my family to all pass me up when i have been working so hard for so long!

Here's the program:
2 meal replacement shakes a day, 4 cups of tea,8 glasses, of water, and take an herbal supplement to burn belly fat 3 times a day, and eat a sensible and colorful meal for dinner... i was like ok, i can handle that for at least 28 days and joined a challenge. All i do is have my shakes (which unlike slimfast actually taste good and come with recipes so you can change up the flavor and not get sick of em) and make sure i eat enough protein everyday and stay away from sugar, splenda and sweet n low are ok.

Its not over yet but i have lost over 10 lbs in 2 weeks AND COUNTING!!! heres the best part of this whole thing to me: IM NOT HUNGRY ANYMORE!!!!! actually sometimes i have to force myself to eat to get in the protein.

Anyways, guys its totally worth it and i just wanted to share it with you bc it really is working for me and id love to hook you up with some healthy weight loss and success like what i have found for myself! let me know if youre interested or have any questions and id be happy to talk to you about it more.

the proof is in the pic, check out my photos to see how fat i was and how not fat i am now!

love yall,
holly

so much more than i can give

...that's what God deserves. I wish i could fully fathom Him and His greatness...someday I suppose when I get to heaven. This morning we talked in Sunday School about the physical description of Christ in heaven and how magnificent He is (rev 1). ITS HOW WE SEE HIM...we talked about how if we really STOP AND THINK first who we are really praying to, then our prayers and our actions would be different. I feel like it's totally true. I know a lot of how God wants me to live but I seem to continually have what i am going to call "wake-up moments" where it's like I wake up and realize that i havent been faithful to God in one way or another. I hate waking up and realizing that I have again chosen to reject Him and disobey Him and even more DISAPPOINT Him. :( I guess another important thing I have recently learned was a little over a week ago at paradigm; bruce was preaching about HOW GOD SEES US (Zechariah 3)... when we accept Christ into our hearts and into our lives as our Hope and Love and Merciful Master, then it's the same picture as in this passage where God no longer sees us in dirty rags bc He has ordered the angels to get us a new robe and a clean turban. We are now clothed like royalty, and we are commanded to stop listening to the deceiver when he tries to tell us otherwise. We are NOW WORTHY, but it is ONLY through the grace and mercy that is the blood of JESUS CHRIST!!!!!

This is all easier said than understood and easier understood than lived out...thats my goal. I want to be the woman God created me to be IN HIM! I want to fulfill HIS purposes for me...I know it wont be easy, but imma try my best and lean on Him for strength and guidance. I am going to surround myself with good Godly influences in my life that make me want to seek Him more and cut out the ones who don't. It will be hard enough without having people around that are always trying to pull me down and make choices I know i dont need to be making...kinda bittersweet i guess since i know some of the details which that entails...

on a happier note, to date i have lost 35 pounds since the wedding diet started last january for Lisa's wedding, hopefully 30 more by next January, but hopefully sooner as I am in high gear and determined like nobody's business right now! new jeans on tuesday! :)

gotta go to bed so i can get up early tomorrow morning, im hoping for the feds to be there so i can get all this review crap outta the way, im sick of it!

anyways, goodnight.

finally friday

Yay! It's finally friday!!! I hope that today is a great day...for me and for you! I hope that today I shower tons of love and patience on my kiddos and that time passes quickly so the weekend will be here. I talked to the boy last night and hopefully will get to see him again this weekend. He is busy and also a little hard to read so i guess we'll just have to wait and see how it goes. I am freezing again as usual and am leaving for work as soon as Lucky comes in the house...took a shower, blow dried the hair and i may STILL be EARLY for work, it's a friday miracle! :)

Hope it's a good one, prayin for no drama today, im maxed out!

it's my favorite day! :)

Tuesday is my favorite day of the week right now... It's not monday, which always seems to be a plus, and while tuesdays havent been particularly easy the past couple of weeks/month...Amplify is back on and that makes it my favorite week day bc i KNOW that at least the end of the day will be awesome! I am so fortunate to have a God who loves me and never gives up on me, and who loved and continues to love me despite when i may have messed up in the past and despite when i will mess up again in the future. simply put: He just loves me. And today, THAT IS ENOUGH!

I have a lot of reading to do, and most of it is pertaining to my FCS exam that's coming up soon, but I'm hoping that i can study my brains out and do a good job on it...the first time, hopefully the only time. I have about 14 references for the three sections my specialization will cover. And also I am reading the book of Luke right now, that's for some reason my most favorite name and what i have resolved long ago to name my first son...it has been on my mind a lot lately (the name Luke, probably due to the fact that my iphone thinks everytime i type like or love that i really mean Luke...) and so i decided to read it again. I also want to reread a book from Sky Ranch called Lord, I want to Know You by Kay Arthur, but i mean i gotta get the studying done first....

Anyways, as far as the rest of life goes, THANK GOD, the court case is finally over and hopefully I wont have anymore bad dreams about it. I feel like I did my part to get justice for the little girl. The boy, I havent really talked to him much today or yesterday but life happens. I had the kiddos all day yesterday and was pretty busy and today we both had work and he started back to school and according to his FB isnte really having that great of a day. I really didnt either, it wasnt bad, but more like sad and disappointing. I am "ridin solo" again without a co-teacher and it kinda stinks, ok majorly but whatev. I'm gonna smile and be happy and compliant and as nice as i can possibly muster! My family is good, hopefully hay went to the dr again today and will be better soon. Blaine started his new job and loves it, and uncle trevy is good too, and doin his EMT stuff still. Both of their gfs have been hookin up my mom and sis this past weekend as they dealt with some illness and sadness as maxine died. :( My gran is good too, she is a mavs fanatic, and that only makes me love her more! Dog finally started eating again too, YAY!!!

Anyways, enough for now, i gotta go try and scrounge up these 14 texts for as cheap as possible!

WORD ! for tuesday, cant wait for 6:45 to be here, so glad my friends are back!!!

blog-worthy night...

So tonight is a blog-worthy night bc i just spent time with the sweetest guy. He is a total gentleman, and I hope that there are many more dates in our future... I may have to start looking for broken computers everywhere just so i can stalk him at work, haha jk. But anyways, he was nice and friendly and he smells good too! (which for anyone who knows me, IS A BIG DEAL!) he is a man who loves God and has big plans for his future, maybe if i'm lucky they will include me. :)

Anyways, i had a great time tonight.

Cant wait for church tomorrow, im sporting my new robe and clean turban. (zechariah 3:4-5)

rough day, but it's lookin up...

TODAY....was a rough day.

Primary witness testified in court today, a child, who says she was sexually assaulted and i'm supposed to decided if she's actually telling the truth like she says she is or if she is lying like the other attorney says she is...hmmm tough job.

My aunt and I had a heart-to-heart at lunch today that was i think exactly what i needed to hear. Not necessarily what i WANTED to hear, more like what I needed....God is so faithful! He always knows exactly what we need, and He is faithful to us, EVEN and probably MOST IMPORTANTLY even when we are not faithful to Him. What can i say?...nothing but thank you because I am so unworthy. :)

I am going to be more faithful to The Faithful One. I am going to worry less and depend on His wisdom and discernment with a heart of thanksgiving and prayer. I KNOW everything will be ok in the end, but it's just hard for me to walk through the desert when i have no idea how long it will be until i get to the promised land.

And then you know there's this possible new godly guy...we will see where that goes if anywhere, you never know???