for better or for worse

Sooooo.... im getting married in about 11 days, and tonight was a little challenging. so i have been thinking about the vows "for better or for worse" and i have to say that i honestly think no matter how bad it ever gets, i dont think i would ever want to live without jarrod. he is my best friend and has we have each other's best interests at heart and even when we dont really like each other that much we still choose to love each other. we both love rhylie and want her to grow up and be the best girl she can be and to be supremely happy in her life. we are trying to work as a team to help her learn now to make good choices so she can make them on her own when she gets older. I want to model a sweet, well-mannered God-fearing example for her. I know i sometimes miss the boat, but that's what forgiveness is for, right? I really do love her though, and cannot wait to be a Hulett like her and her daddy. I want us to be a family and to be for each other and to band together no matter what comes at us. I think this is more than happy because thats just a feeling that can come and go. A week or two ago i was frustrated because we as a couple were under some scrutiny, but i think it has only made us more sure and stronger. Im now thankful for this though because without it we might not know or be as sure of what we really want. My heart hurts even when he is only gone for a few hours to work here in town and it is worse when he has to go out of town. It was horrible when i went to europe and couldnt see or talk to him for so long. He is my partner in life and i want it to always be that way. I had my heart broken by a boy who got a little too much of it ince and i thought i would never love anyone that much ever again, and i was wrong. I thought it would always be broken and that no matter what happened no one would ever be able to fix it or to help me get over it and love again, and wouldnt you know that right in that moment when i felt the most unlovable...there he was! He was polite and charming, then not so much...he was a boy i dated, a boy i blew off that kept chasing after me, and then my best friend, my boyfriend, and soon he will be my husband and will promise to love me no matter what and stick by me through thick and thin... he will tell everyone that even though neither of us is perfect, he chooses me. and FOR THAT...i absolutely cannot wait!

Love you babe! :)

HBC

LOSE WEIGHT NOW, ASK ME HOW!!!!

Ok so here's the truth, i needed to lose weight BAD!!!! I got on the scale and it said 235 and i just about died, and decided it was time to get serious about losing weight. I have tried everything guys, healthy food and exercise, crazy hard exercise everyday (can i get an amen from the P90X'ers of the world) and starving myself. I have done slim fast, and weight watchers, and calorie counting, and diet pills...the whole nine yards! i was having a little but of success after about a year of really bustin my butt everyday, but its such a slow and painful process right...WRONG! it doesnt have to be, and now that i have found the answer i want to share it with everyone i know that feels the way i did.

Here's how it happened for me:
My aunt and uncle invited me to go skiing with them in mid febuary, and we had a blast! what i didnt know was that they had both just joined a weight loss challenge where they would take these products from a nutrition company and supposedly it would just melt the weight off in a healthy manner. without exercise. I was like HA! ok lets see this! long story short, she won 4th place and he got 7th out of 105 poeple and they each won $100 cash! they lost 16 & 18 lbs in 28 days. Then my other aunt, two uncles, and grandmother in dallas got on the products and were having similiar results, except lisa and steve got 1st place and 2nd place in their challange. So finally i get to thinking about it and decide i'll give it a try bc i dont want my family to all pass me up when i have been working so hard for so long!

Here's the program:
2 meal replacement shakes a day, 4 cups of tea,8 glasses, of water, and take an herbal supplement to burn belly fat 3 times a day, and eat a sensible and colorful meal for dinner... i was like ok, i can handle that for at least 28 days and joined a challenge. All i do is have my shakes (which unlike slimfast actually taste good and come with recipes so you can change up the flavor and not get sick of em) and make sure i eat enough protein everyday and stay away from sugar, splenda and sweet n low are ok.

Its not over yet but i have lost over 10 lbs in 2 weeks AND COUNTING!!! heres the best part of this whole thing to me: IM NOT HUNGRY ANYMORE!!!!! actually sometimes i have to force myself to eat to get in the protein.

Anyways, guys its totally worth it and i just wanted to share it with you bc it really is working for me and id love to hook you up with some healthy weight loss and success like what i have found for myself! let me know if youre interested or have any questions and id be happy to talk to you about it more.

the proof is in the pic, check out my photos to see how fat i was and how not fat i am now!

love yall,
holly

so much more than i can give

...that's what God deserves. I wish i could fully fathom Him and His greatness...someday I suppose when I get to heaven. This morning we talked in Sunday School about the physical description of Christ in heaven and how magnificent He is (rev 1). ITS HOW WE SEE HIM...we talked about how if we really STOP AND THINK first who we are really praying to, then our prayers and our actions would be different. I feel like it's totally true. I know a lot of how God wants me to live but I seem to continually have what i am going to call "wake-up moments" where it's like I wake up and realize that i havent been faithful to God in one way or another. I hate waking up and realizing that I have again chosen to reject Him and disobey Him and even more DISAPPOINT Him. :( I guess another important thing I have recently learned was a little over a week ago at paradigm; bruce was preaching about HOW GOD SEES US (Zechariah 3)... when we accept Christ into our hearts and into our lives as our Hope and Love and Merciful Master, then it's the same picture as in this passage where God no longer sees us in dirty rags bc He has ordered the angels to get us a new robe and a clean turban. We are now clothed like royalty, and we are commanded to stop listening to the deceiver when he tries to tell us otherwise. We are NOW WORTHY, but it is ONLY through the grace and mercy that is the blood of JESUS CHRIST!!!!!

This is all easier said than understood and easier understood than lived out...thats my goal. I want to be the woman God created me to be IN HIM! I want to fulfill HIS purposes for me...I know it wont be easy, but imma try my best and lean on Him for strength and guidance. I am going to surround myself with good Godly influences in my life that make me want to seek Him more and cut out the ones who don't. It will be hard enough without having people around that are always trying to pull me down and make choices I know i dont need to be making...kinda bittersweet i guess since i know some of the details which that entails...

on a happier note, to date i have lost 35 pounds since the wedding diet started last january for Lisa's wedding, hopefully 30 more by next January, but hopefully sooner as I am in high gear and determined like nobody's business right now! new jeans on tuesday! :)

gotta go to bed so i can get up early tomorrow morning, im hoping for the feds to be there so i can get all this review crap outta the way, im sick of it!

anyways, goodnight.

finally friday

Yay! It's finally friday!!! I hope that today is a great day...for me and for you! I hope that today I shower tons of love and patience on my kiddos and that time passes quickly so the weekend will be here. I talked to the boy last night and hopefully will get to see him again this weekend. He is busy and also a little hard to read so i guess we'll just have to wait and see how it goes. I am freezing again as usual and am leaving for work as soon as Lucky comes in the house...took a shower, blow dried the hair and i may STILL be EARLY for work, it's a friday miracle! :)

Hope it's a good one, prayin for no drama today, im maxed out!

it's my favorite day! :)

Tuesday is my favorite day of the week right now... It's not monday, which always seems to be a plus, and while tuesdays havent been particularly easy the past couple of weeks/month...Amplify is back on and that makes it my favorite week day bc i KNOW that at least the end of the day will be awesome! I am so fortunate to have a God who loves me and never gives up on me, and who loved and continues to love me despite when i may have messed up in the past and despite when i will mess up again in the future. simply put: He just loves me. And today, THAT IS ENOUGH!

I have a lot of reading to do, and most of it is pertaining to my FCS exam that's coming up soon, but I'm hoping that i can study my brains out and do a good job on it...the first time, hopefully the only time. I have about 14 references for the three sections my specialization will cover. And also I am reading the book of Luke right now, that's for some reason my most favorite name and what i have resolved long ago to name my first son...it has been on my mind a lot lately (the name Luke, probably due to the fact that my iphone thinks everytime i type like or love that i really mean Luke...) and so i decided to read it again. I also want to reread a book from Sky Ranch called Lord, I want to Know You by Kay Arthur, but i mean i gotta get the studying done first....

Anyways, as far as the rest of life goes, THANK GOD, the court case is finally over and hopefully I wont have anymore bad dreams about it. I feel like I did my part to get justice for the little girl. The boy, I havent really talked to him much today or yesterday but life happens. I had the kiddos all day yesterday and was pretty busy and today we both had work and he started back to school and according to his FB isnte really having that great of a day. I really didnt either, it wasnt bad, but more like sad and disappointing. I am "ridin solo" again without a co-teacher and it kinda stinks, ok majorly but whatev. I'm gonna smile and be happy and compliant and as nice as i can possibly muster! My family is good, hopefully hay went to the dr again today and will be better soon. Blaine started his new job and loves it, and uncle trevy is good too, and doin his EMT stuff still. Both of their gfs have been hookin up my mom and sis this past weekend as they dealt with some illness and sadness as maxine died. :( My gran is good too, she is a mavs fanatic, and that only makes me love her more! Dog finally started eating again too, YAY!!!

Anyways, enough for now, i gotta go try and scrounge up these 14 texts for as cheap as possible!

WORD ! for tuesday, cant wait for 6:45 to be here, so glad my friends are back!!!

blog-worthy night...

So tonight is a blog-worthy night bc i just spent time with the sweetest guy. He is a total gentleman, and I hope that there are many more dates in our future... I may have to start looking for broken computers everywhere just so i can stalk him at work, haha jk. But anyways, he was nice and friendly and he smells good too! (which for anyone who knows me, IS A BIG DEAL!) he is a man who loves God and has big plans for his future, maybe if i'm lucky they will include me. :)

Anyways, i had a great time tonight.

Cant wait for church tomorrow, im sporting my new robe and clean turban. (zechariah 3:4-5)

rough day, but it's lookin up...

TODAY....was a rough day.

Primary witness testified in court today, a child, who says she was sexually assaulted and i'm supposed to decided if she's actually telling the truth like she says she is or if she is lying like the other attorney says she is...hmmm tough job.

My aunt and I had a heart-to-heart at lunch today that was i think exactly what i needed to hear. Not necessarily what i WANTED to hear, more like what I needed....God is so faithful! He always knows exactly what we need, and He is faithful to us, EVEN and probably MOST IMPORTANTLY even when we are not faithful to Him. What can i say?...nothing but thank you because I am so unworthy. :)

I am going to be more faithful to The Faithful One. I am going to worry less and depend on His wisdom and discernment with a heart of thanksgiving and prayer. I KNOW everything will be ok in the end, but it's just hard for me to walk through the desert when i have no idea how long it will be until i get to the promised land.

And then you know there's this possible new godly guy...we will see where that goes if anywhere, you never know???

haha, joke's on me...

so apparently the joke was on me when i wrote that last post bc my coteacher is jumpin ship on me, my friend who is a good worker is not allowed to replace her in my room like she wants to, and my boss is acting like she has no choice and just cannot figure out why i am mad at her when its totally her choice! its ok though bc im obviously the problem. you see i have, in the past 5 years, been a faithful employee who has worked with 14 other teachers and trained several of them. i hate training people because i hate telling people older than me what to do...which is what is about to happen since the girl theyre about to hire is older than me. luckily for me though, i am able to change me. so if im the problem here then im good bc i can fix that. i've decided to start seriously looking for a new job. I am about to register and study-like-crazy for my FCS test and try to have a teaching job by next august for sure. and possibly in dallas, this could be my chance to go home... im just kinda stressed and mad at my whole work situation now, but its ok bc i will savor every moment i have left with my kiddos until i leave.

and im gonna complain less about jury duty, kinda hope it takes forever NOW!!!!

BLAH...

I really really really LOVE sonny corinthos!!!!

I really really really DO NOT love dressing up everyday!

I really really really DO NOT love having to be quiet all day!

I really really really DO NOT love having to sit still all day!

I really really really MISS my friends and my babies!

I really really really want to go back to work!

I really really really dont want this responsibility!

epic fail!

...jury duty!

i got picked...

oh all the people, I GOT PICKED!!!!

for a case of aggrivated sexual assault of a child...

....are you kidding me!?!?!?!?!?!

new shoes and cute boys, who could ask for more?

soo I got some new flip flips last night, I got some black strappy teva sandals for $7 after they went on sale and I used my $10 off coupon. of course I had to go home and try them on right away, and then I wore them to my friends house, although in between I had some buyers remorse... remorse that I didn't get the brown ones too, soooooo... I went back to go get the brown ones in the way to his house. I only paid $18 fr those. which basically means I got buy one get one free!!! then today at work my friend Colette gave me her coupon so I think I'm going to go back and get the navy blue ones that I also liked tomorrow. GSE (get so excited) anyways, for now I am about as happy as can be, I have a super sweet baby boy sleeping in my lap! I just love him sooo much! we went for a walk earlier and he had the best time! It's not as good of exercise as say running on the treadmill and then elipticizing but also better than nothing... every little bit counts right! :D hbc

Better late than never, right???

ok well not only is this post better late than never, but i suppose junky formatting is better than none as well... i cannot get these pictures to do what i want them too. Anyhow the first lady with the dreads was from the folk festival going on in kerrville that weekend and kinda inspired the rest of the weekend... time to go to bed now... this weekend was exhausting and work comes early!

ok well, I can't get the pics to work from my phone but I promise some day I'll get them up bc there are a ton of them that Delese and Shawn and I took of people in San Antonio...

so I've decided to photoblog out trip to San antonio, it's coming soon!!!

good end to a bad day! :)

worst day in a long time...

today was good, sleep couldve been better but it was ok. then I took a shower and did my hair and got dressed and went shoppin, got a new pair of zebra flats and new black flip flops from dsw. then I dropped of julies bowl and told the fam I loved them and headed with the flop of the yr bday cake to jarrods house. he's so sweet and was so nice and even fixed the cake that the top layer slid off. he ate some and i had a bite and it was pretty good. then we watched a movie called fletch lives and it was funny, and then we just hung out with his roommate a lil outside, it was nice!
I had a good time and I really like him!
:D hbc

sooo here was my saturday: I got to sleepin really late which I loved, but when I went to go run I pulled my groin muscle which is now hurting nicely. but then I got to talk to the boy and so it was all good... then I went to an undisclosed location (on acct of Marla Watson may read this) and continued to texting the boy where I learned some nice insights into his heart/life. I then proceeded to go to the mall and look for new glasses which was an epic fail bc I locked my keys and spare keys in my car! :D after about 1/2 hr and $30 later the locksmith had them out and I said forget the mall! then I went to visionmart where they had two ok pairs of glasses but nothing I was in love with so I went home, took a short nap with my puppy, then showered and decided to do nothing to nothing tonight.

that would be when the flood of invites came in... the basses, the petersons, Colette, and Jarrod... guess who won?!?!?!

it was a great night, we watched a movie and held hands, nothin major! then when it was over he walked me to the car and kissed me goodnight like a perfect gentleman! :D

I really like him! chow4now! hbc

sooo tonight was jacksons 7th bday party at mr. gattis and it was a pretty good time. the pizza was pretty good and the people wrangling the children were really good! they had balloon animals, face painting, really good cake, and then it was on to gattiland for game time! I was jacksons ticket caddy and folded up all of his tickets and kept them in my pocket while we went from game to game. my favorite part of the whole night though was playing air hockey with him and letting him win. he was sooo happy, and it was totally worth it! we ended up with a grand total of 205 tickets, which is like a million to a 7 yr old! I love that little boy so so so much!!!
chow4now! hbc

ok so we're both a little bummed that Jarrod didn't get to come over like we planned. His daughter decided she wanted to stay with him at his house instead of her aunts like she said, but hey that's what 3 year olds & girls do, right??? and if anyone can understand that, it's definitely me!!! I mean my whole life thus far has been kids... they're what I love, know, and am good at!!!

anyways, I told him he'd just have to make it up to me and he said he totally would and thanked me for understanding! he's a sweetheart that loves his little girl! I guess that's just one more hott thing to add to the list! goo, I think I may be in trouble with this one!

I'm exhausted and shouldve gone to bed long ago, so chow4now! hbc