for better or for worse

Sooooo.... im getting married in about 11 days, and tonight was a little challenging. so i have been thinking about the vows "for better or for worse" and i have to say that i honestly think no matter how bad it ever gets, i dont think i would ever want to live without jarrod. he is my best friend and has we have each other's best interests at heart and even when we dont really like each other that much we still choose to love each other. we both love rhylie and want her to grow up and be the best girl she can be and to be supremely happy in her life. we are trying to work as a team to help her learn now to make good choices so she can make them on her own when she gets older. I want to model a sweet, well-mannered God-fearing example for her. I know i sometimes miss the boat, but that's what forgiveness is for, right? I really do love her though, and cannot wait to be a Hulett like her and her daddy. I want us to be a family and to be for each other and to band together no matter what comes at us. I think this is more than happy because thats just a feeling that can come and go. A week or two ago i was frustrated because we as a couple were under some scrutiny, but i think it has only made us more sure and stronger. Im now thankful for this though because without it we might not know or be as sure of what we really want. My heart hurts even when he is only gone for a few hours to work here in town and it is worse when he has to go out of town. It was horrible when i went to europe and couldnt see or talk to him for so long. He is my partner in life and i want it to always be that way. I had my heart broken by a boy who got a little too much of it ince and i thought i would never love anyone that much ever again, and i was wrong. I thought it would always be broken and that no matter what happened no one would ever be able to fix it or to help me get over it and love again, and wouldnt you know that right in that moment when i felt the most unlovable...there he was! He was polite and charming, then not so much...he was a boy i dated, a boy i blew off that kept chasing after me, and then my best friend, my boyfriend, and soon he will be my husband and will promise to love me no matter what and stick by me through thick and thin... he will tell everyone that even though neither of us is perfect, he chooses me. and FOR THAT...i absolutely cannot wait!

Love you babe! :)

HBC